I wonder if I'm a man, I've had 2 people separately tell me recently I have too many opinions to make a good female, and the other night when we were going out someone came to the bathroom and said "chemical factory time huh?" and grinned knowingly, so I put my eyeliner on -with the mascara I'd had on all day- and just felt bad about not being girlish enough. I mean, I don't want to be a cliche, but if everyone else is I'm just going to get pointed at and I never did enjoy it much, hmm, no actually I did , I like standing out, it's when you get spat on that's the not so nice bit really. And girls putting make up on in clubs, I thought the idea was to get too drunk to remember how to spell exfoliate, then climb up things and dance on top of them.

Although on the other hand I've been told (by 4 people, that beats the 2 above doesn't it?) I dance making it too obvious that I'm a girl and I should tone it down, I don't know why, it's not like I flash or anything, and another thing, all the men I know have more moisturisers than me, so I can't be a man either, I guess I'm stuck.

I said “I only have an AP thingy camera, you know, erm, where the film goes in the end and um, stuff”…AND this was sufficient, so who am I to complain? they’re even paying me!!!!!!!!! Honest!

Hooray!

I wrote a drunken diary entry last night but I've hidden it now, it didn't really make much sense and I wouldn't want to come across as erm, the pitiful drunk that I am! I'll stick with just pitiful for now, had such a good night out last night though, and a refreshing text message from one of my friends about the whole Jonny thing "sorry, there's other fish in the sea and all that shit" which is about how I feel now, everyone else wants to talk it to death and I'm bored of it! * Hi if you're reading this again, I don't mean I'm bored of YOU here, just of the situation!! Which you'll be glad of! :) Aren't I well balanced? *

And bAckline, you know I'll stroke your ego all day if you'd stroke my hair, hrmph, you won't now it's short though, oh well! Lost opportunity.

Oh yeah, my hair, it's all short now! Had to be up at 8 to go get it cut with a hangover, lovely. Eeek, why oh why am I here at this time? Off to sleep!

going to the national centre for popular music tomorrow, where my friend's band is playing again, somebody said something funny about the NCPM about the building looking like those things you slide across ice as a sport, yeah? Thingy, where the other guy runs ahead of it and polished the ice the slidey bit is about to hit???? anyway, when I remember, I'll tell you and then you'll be amused, oh yes, just wait and see, well you probably won't, I only was as I'd never noticed what the shape reminded me of til somebody else crystalised it for me in a kinda funny manner. Oh never mind. Their (friend's band) posters have something about experimentation with moustaches on which I figure to be secretly rude, as in the old days when I used to have random minor flings with band-guy, his friend accused me of some moustache related incident. I don't have a moustache, There must be something in this obsession they have, I'll try and ask tomorrow, oh I mean tonight!

whoops, time to sleep I guess!

saying football's good is probably non-jenny-like, but not long enough. Oh well.

although I don't dislike football, just saying it was good randomly wouldn't be very normal......lalalalalala. Gotta stop drinking a bottle of wine every night. I wanted to go to Poptarts tonight but it's too late now, oh well, off to watch video or tv or whatever, Night!!!!!!!!!!!