I can't believe it has taken just over a month but I am having my first serious regret about turning down the job that I was offered at the end of October.

I didn't get the job that I interviewed for this morning which is a bummer but not all that surprising - I fared pretty well when they told me and had some "i'm being so mature about this and understand" emails to friend in another department. Then my boss (who was on the interview panel) came in to give me more feedback (but also to support me as my line manager) and I stayed pretty calm and collected because I knew the points he was making were fair (I don't have enough management experience blah, blah, blah). When he left though, I felt the need to cry like a girl because I'm knackered and think I have the flu coming on. I'm so glad it is the weekend.

Only ray of light in this abyss-esque thing is that the person who I thought would get it - my new MLC to some degree - didn't get it either and the person who got the job I don't know that well so don't really resent her for getting it.

I know I would have regretted it if I had not applied/interviewed for the job but that isn't much comfort right now.

Bahh! Gahh! and other such words.